Monday, May 21, 2007

asian trekker for a couple of weeks (part 1)

The joy of being fresh out of work and being officially in-between jobs! I know this is short-lived but I'm hoping my sideline businesses will cover my expenses for the next weeks haha.

I took advantage of this period to travel a bit. So from here in Singapore my friends and I took a road trip to Kuala Lumpur. I've lived here for almost 3 years now but I never got the chance to make my way to have my photo taken with the famous Petronas Towers haha.

We stayed in this backpackers' hostel named Guest Havenhouse which is highly recommended for its cleanliness (as it is still relatively new), good service (they actually clean up your room when you are away!) and one of it's part-owners is hot! Wahahahaha. The morning with the ol' Petronas Towers was cool but aside from that KL -- for me -- isn't a place that I would go back to soon. Or ever? Nothing much to do. The food is good, the shopping is mediocre. The supposedly tourist attraction Central Market is very lame. I guess staying overnight is more than enough for this place. The bus ride was quite comfortable though. No "bus smell" (I feel like the scent of old bubblegum permeates most buses -- or is just their air freshener?), and I managed to sleep a couple of hours. And the seats recline just like what I see in movies for first class airline seats.

So that was two weekends ago. Just this weekend I cam from Bangkok. My third visit in three years. I just want to go back! Stayed in another backpackers' hostel but I didn't like it so much. Run down, not so good location. You'd know if the location isn't good when the cab drivers demand exorbitant rates for sending you there from the Suan Lum night market! Good thing nice cab driver Mr. Rung drove us by meter! Bangkok is still THE place for any girl's shopping needs. Prices are pretty much Manila prices but the great unique finds! And flying from SG is much cheaper than flying from Manila as my airfare PLUS my accommodations PLUS my shopping equal to just the airfare to Manila.

I've got a day now to breathe then I'm flying home to Manila tomorrow! That's the best part! I'll be writing about it again soon, as we will also be going to Bohol sometime June. Woohoo!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

chance to live life

I guess it's a sign when I'm starting to NOT have a life when I just keep on associating myself with the people I see on TV. Like this afternoon I was watching the latest episode of Gilmore Girls and I related to Rory's thoughts when she said that for a while she was scared that her life was undecided when her dream of joining the New York Times was shut off, and all her other chances just flew away. But now she was excited that life was wide open for her.

Yesterday was my last day in my job of 2 years and 11 months. I was telling myself this morning it was my first day of being unemployed or of being in between jobs. Was about to put in "officially unemployed" in my yahoo status message but I remembered that I am a naturally optimistic person. So instead I put in "I'm free!"

Indeed I am. So yes, I agree with Rory. I have life wide open for me! And this is my chance to live life the way I dreamt of.

And going back to my not-having-a-life tendency, as what Meredith Grey said in one of the recent episodes, "Everyone's dream is having the chance to keep on dreaming."

So allow me to still watch my TV shows. But I'm going to live beyond that. I'm actually going to do something about my life.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

ideal offices on TV

My mind is filled with boob tube details as watching my US series have eaten up a lot of my free time for the past days, weeks, months.

I was watching Grey's Anatomy's two-hour special (season 3, episodes 22 to 23) when I couldn't help but be envious of the office environment of the Beachfront Wellness Centre. With hot men like Taye Diggs and the other guy, plus the yummy receptionist played by the guy who plays Piz in Veronica Mars (his name's Chris Lowell I think). The office environment is laid back, home-like.

If only I can find an architectural firm with that kind of environment. Or start one!

But then again Teri Hatcher's home office in Desperate Housewives is quite appealing too. Maybe soon enough I can have a home office as well then be free to make my own errands in my time.

Sigh. Countdown...

Monday, May 07, 2007


Guess the guy didn't get the message. He actually had the guts to come to the office and have the receptionist call me! I guess it would have been okay if he never worked here. But he did and most of the office population knows him. Mostly likely it was only the receptionist plus a few other people saw him. I told the receptionist that I was waiting for a call and could not go out. She said he had some stuff to pass to me. So I told her to collect for me. It turned out to be a couple of mini cakes and a card that I don't even want to open.

I'm so rattled by it that I'm eating the cake now. How dare he corner me like that. How dare he give a hint to our receptionist about what's going on? The receptionist is a great girl but she could be a blabbermouth. I'm just hoping that she's thinking it's more of a farewell gift for me and nothing else.

What the hell was he thinking???

glad i'm not a guy

A guy friend of mine who was a former colleague actually revealed his feelings for me over an email. I think at this time I'm grateful to technology that he actually did it through an email, as he just isn't my type. Made replying to him easier.

I just wondered if there wasn't internet access or mobile text messages, then he would have done it face-to-face and I wouldn't have handled it well. I'm just not good in expressing my feelings in an impromptu narrative. So maybe I wouldn't have had the chance to tell him what I felt.

On the other hand... WHAT IF I liked the guy? I would have hated that he revealed his feelings over an email. Would have been points against him.

Guys have it tough really. Glad I'm not one. And I'm not one of those girls who would be doing the pursuing anyway.

But then again, it's also tough waiting.

Anyways back to that guy. It felt really REALLY icky reading cheesy stuff coming from him. Which is quite unfair cuz if he was someone I liked I would have been on top of the world. But it turned out to be the opposite. I found myself just scanning through his email, skipping the gory details.

So as I mentioned, it became easier for me to reply. Since he said those via email, I replied via email. Eye for an eye, right? So I frankly told him how he stood with me. That I don't share the same feelings and that friendship is all he can expect from me. And that things are bound to change after. How pitiful for guys that can jeopardize friendships due to feelings they couldn't help.

So I thought that was the end of it. But no... he emailed me twice more after I replied. He was trying to redeem himself or making me feel guilty or whatever. But basically he just kept going on and on about his feelings, that I don't really know everything written in the emails as I just scanned through them as they were just plain awakward.

I thought my blunt reply was enough to put him on his place. But he actually said that he hoped to ask me out in the future. Stubborn, aren't we?

So my final attempt was to reply to his second email, which plainly said that his emails were starting to make him feel uneasy. And that he should give me time as I just can't handle it. I resisted to write and tell him to just stop.

I tried to be as honest as I could. It's the least I could do. The last time this happened I never gave the guy any closure. I just ran away. Or a better term would be "hid" from him. At least I know a tad better this time that guys deserve your honesty. If they can't deal, sorry.

And please don't say I didn't give him a chance. I did. A few times actually. Even when I didn't want to I listened to some friends of mine who said he deserves a chance. So I gave him two chances. And there just isn't any chemistry. It also didn't help he didn't pay for my meal nor helped me carry my shopping packages (so now can you blame me for not liking him that way?)

I hope I handled it right this time. But what's sad is I think I'm losing a friend because of this. But oh well, I guess that's how life goes. We just move on.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

70 Confessions (just to kill time...)

1.The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
right now... hmm... anyone from my family, a good friend

2. When shopping at the grocery store..
i always get my box (or two) of muesli and a litre of milk.

3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed, would you?
why not?

4. Do you take compliments well?
depends on the form of compliment and who gave it.

5. Do you play Sudoku?
used to.

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
i guess i would.

7. Do you like nipple rings?

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?

9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
piko. monopoly. sorry.

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married what would do?
tell him off. wouldn't stand another girl doing that to me!

12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
friendly date maybe, but i know it won't go anywhere.

13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
be pursued of course!

14. Use three words to describe yourself at the moment.
tired, lazy, tired. (haha)

15. Do any songs make you cry?
depends on my mood.

16. Are you continuing your education?
nope. unless someone gives me

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?

18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grab?
oh gosh... that's one of my worst nigthmares... we've lived in the same house forever. don't even want to think about it, knock on wood.

19. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
my mom, sister and nephew when i last flew home.

20. Who do you call the most?
my parents.

21. What is your favorite children's book?
encyclopedia brown I think.

22. What color are your eyes?

23. How tall are you?

24. Do you have a crush on 'Dave the Goofy Professor'?
don't even know who he is

25. If you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you?
no thanks. i appreciate that everything happened for a reason, now i just move on!

26. Any secret admirers?
how would i know if it's a secret?

27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
i think when i was a kid and places like photoline and the like weren't so common yet.

28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
i don't even know where olive garden is :(

29 Favorite ex?

30. Where is the furthest place you've traveled?
Haven't been out of Asia :(

33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
right now, sleep.

34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
both! but i'm my dad's dughter, if you get what i mean :)

35. How long does it take you in the shower?
depends on how much time i've got.

36. Can you do splits?

37. What movie do you want to see right now?
because i said so.

39. What did you do for New Year's Eve?
had dinner with my family.

40. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?
i didn't watch it

Hmm... we're missing a number #41, so its just 69 confessions!

42. Do you own a camera phone?
not anymore.

44. Was your mom a cheerleader?

45. What's the last letter of your middle name?
A (that's not a confession... anyone would know that...)

47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
7 i think.

48. Do you like care bears?
i used to. brins back memories :)

49. What do you buy at the Movies?
the last i could remember was i split a meal with my mom and sis in gateway malll wherein it had that yummy doughy thingie with whipped cream and chocolate on top. yummy!

50. Do you know how to play poker?

51.Do you wear your seatbelt?
here in singapore yeah

52. What do you wear to sleep?
loose shirt and shorts

53. Anything big ever happen in your town?
don't think so.

54. Is your hair straight or curly?
frizzy straight haha

55. Is your tongue pierced?

56. Do you like Liver and Onions?
yeah :) liver steak yum yum! but not too much of it of course...

57.Have you ever been in love?
with my family, with a place.

58. Do you like funny or serious people better?
a balance of both is good.

59. Ever been to L.A.?

61. Do you visit daily?
haven't heard of it and you can't make me check it out now just because you mentioned it!

62. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?

63. Do you hate chocolate?
how could anyone hate chocolate?!?

64. What do/did you and your parents fight about the most?
we haven't fought for years now :)

65. Are you a gullible person?
i think so :P

66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
don't think so

67. If u could have any job what would it be?
personal shopper

68. Are you easy to get along with?
i think so :)

69. What is your favorite time of day?
evenings (friday in particular) since you have the weekend ahead of you!

70. Are you a generally happy person?
yup yup!

and i'm back!

Gosh. I haven't written here for the longest time and SO MUCH has happened and a whole lot more are bound to happen in the next days/ weeks/ months. The first quarter of the year seemed life-changing. I don't think I can use the word stability to describe this year for me at all.

Just a lowdown of what has been happening with me:
1. I've had a sideline business which has been eating up a lot of my free time for the past two months.
2. I've decided to resign from my job of almost two years and tomorrow's the day i'll be tendering my resignation... by mid may I'll be free!
3. I've been evaluating what I really want out of life and I think little by little I'm on my way there :)

All that plus of course updating myself with the latest episodes of Prison Break (hated the season 2 finale...), Heroes, House, Desperate Housewives, the oc (buh-bye oc!), One Tree Hill, Veronica Mars, Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip, Lost, Grey's Anatomy, Gilmore Girls, Dirt, Ugly Betty, Entourage and My Name is Earl. Hahaha. If there's a will to do all these... there's a way to make it happen!

The next months will be a bumpy ride. It can lead me to a new job here in this city, a new business, or even let me fly back home. But I'll stick to my new year's resolution and make sure that whatever path I would take is based on what I want.

Maybe the next few months I can go back to writing a lot again in this ol' blog of mine and let you know how it goes!

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

what am i doing???

I've been telling myself for the past weeks that I've just bullshitted my way through my day-to-day work life here in my current job. To think I've been with the company for over 2 years now.

I don't believe in the company's design profile. Maybe the company is also bullshitting its way to gain prestige. But who am I to judge? I am no Frank Gehry or Richard Meier. I'm not like others who invest on subscriptions to Architectural Record. Nor do I frequent the website. I think I only visited their website once. I prefer checking out or

I can't design as easily as the some of the other people in the office. In my worse days I consider myself as one of the weakest links among the architects. I won't be surprised that I would be one of those to go if the company decides to lay-off people. But then again, maybe I would thank them if they do that. Make the decision for me. And also, I guess I will be gone even before they decide to take that step.

How long more can I bullshit my way through?

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Slow Culture

I'm not really much into forwards and chain letters. (Don't worry, this isn't a chain letter) Even if some chain letters involve Jesus or love or something like that, I delete it right away, thinking it contradicts the Bible's teaching of unconditional love. (I believe God doesn't need me to forward messages for me to show Him that I love Him.)

So anyway this one is something that made me think. It also ties up with the stories I've been hearing lately about cultures that are more laid back -- the Danish, the Australians.

Now I learn about the Swedish. Before I read this, the only thing I knew about Sweden is that IKEA originated from there heheh.

Anyways, I pasted the statement below. To whoever's copyright it is, my apologies. I just wanted to share the insights.

An interesting reflection: Slow Down Culture

It's been 18 years since I joined Volvo, a Swedish company. Working for them has proven to be an interesting experience. Any project here takes 2 years to be finalized, even if the idea is simple and brilliant. It's a rule.

Globalized processes have caused in us (all over the world) a general sense of searching for immediate results. Therefore, we have come to posses a need to see immediate results. This contrasts greatly with the slow movements of the Swedish. They, on the other hand, debate,
debate, debate, hold x quantity of meetings and work with a slowdown scheme. At the end, this always yields better results.

Said in another words:
1. Sweden is about the size of San Pablo, a state in Brazil.
2. Sweden has 2 million inhabitants.
3. Stockholm, has 500,000 people.
4. Volvo, Escania, Ericsson, Electrolux, Nokia are some of its renowned companies. Volvo supplies the NASA.

The first time I was in Sweden, one of my colleagues picked me up at the hotel every morning. It was September, bit cold and snowy. We would arrive early at the company and he would park far away from the entrance (2000 employees drive their car to work). The first day, I didn't say anything, either the second or third. One morning I asked, "Do you have a fixed parking space? I've noticed we park far from the entrance even when there are no other cars in the lot." To which he replied, "Since we're here early we'll have time to walk, and whoever gets in late will be late and need a place closer to the door. Don't you think? Imagine my face.

Nowadays, there's a movement in Europe name Slow Food. This movement establishes that people should eat and drink slowly, with enough time to taste their food, spend time with the family, friends, without rushing. Slow Food is against its counterpart: the spirit of Fast
Food and what it stands for as a lifestyle. Slow Food is the basis for a bigger movement called Slow Europe, as mentioned by Business Week.

Basically, the movement questions the sense of "hurry" and "craziness" generated by globalization, fueled by the desire of "having in quantity" (life status) versus "having with quality", "life quality" or the "quality of being". French people, even though they work 35 hours per week, are more productive than Americans or British. Germans have established 28.8 hour workweeks and have seen their productivity been driven up by 20%. This slow attitude has brought forth the US's attention, pupils of the fast and the "do it now!".

This no-rush attitude doesn't represent doing less or having a lower productivity. It means working and doing things with greater quality, productivity, perfection, with attention to detail and less stress. It means reestablishing family values, friends, free and leisure
time. Taking the "now", present and concrete, versus the "global", undefined and anonymous. It means taking humans' essential values, the simplicity of living.

It stands for a less coercive work environment, more happy, lighter and more productive where humans enjoy doing what they know best how to do. It's time to stop and think on how companies need to develop serious quality with no-rush that will increase productivity and the quality of products and services, without losing the essence of spirit.

In the movie, Scent of a Woman, there's a scene where Al Pacino asks a girl to dance and she replies, "I can't, my boyfriend will be here any minute now". To which Al responds, "A life is lived in an instant". Then they dance to a tango.

Many of us live our lives running behind time, but we only reach it when we die of a heart attack or in a car accident rushing to be on time. Others are so anxious of living the future that they forget to live the present, which is the only time that truly exists. We all have equal time throughout the world. No one has more or less. The difference lies in how each one of us does with our time. We need to live each moment. As John Lennon said, "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans".

Now that's the life, isn't it? With such an ideal life wouldn't would have to dream of the day they can retire and achieve that more laid back lifestyle since they would ALREADY be living that life.

Something to think about.